A life of all or nothing

I tend to be an all or nothing type of person, and it doesn’t lead to good convos or life relationships : /  People are rather startled by my talk.  And they don’t know what to think of my lifestyle.  So that all said.  What does God want in this life, I call mine?  How do I surrender and walk with a God who hates sin, but always love me.   Who sees what I can be when I’ve just offended the 10th person in a row…. I have forgiveness and redemption from Him.   Thank God for forgiveness, for redemption, and for the sanctification that is mine as I walk in obedience… Thank God that He never quits, never gives up and never holds a grudge…. I want to be like that.. Do I have a message with my all or nothing?  Well possibly God wants to hone. : ))   And yet He made me this way and He calls me beautiful!  Are there rough edges that He wants dealt with?  Of course!  But it’s His job as I walk in surrender…. It’s not my burden to reform myself, nor critique or grumble… Just bow my heart, repent and praise…  It’s His job to do a good work in me, and I SUBMIT!!   I surrender to my Father, who loves me, and has the best for me.  I surrender to my Father who never quits, whose never miserable over my failures, who never thinks I’m hopeless.  I am blessed, seated in heavenly places with my FATHER!  And I’m beginning to look like HIM!